Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in leah's LiveJournal:

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Sunday, July 6th, 2008
10:20 am	Something that I already know... I feel as though I've literally just woken up from a year long nap- even though I got less than six hours of sleep last night. I'm just renewed and ready for the rest of the summer, ready for college, ready to step out of my comfort zone and discover what's out there. No looking back. Some songs are just amazing. Hmm. Current Mood: excited (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 24th, 2008
9:55 pm	...and as our eyes start to close- i turn to you, and i let you know that i love you. Tonight was fun. :) For the first time in a while, I feel as though I've actually run out of words. I have nothing left to say that I haven't already made clear. There's nothing left to do. I'm tempted to crawl up to the top of my closet and get that box down... Not yet. I hope. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
11:40 am	I love Kate Hauser. She provides my life. everything I admire is embodied in her. thank you all for letting me share. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
8:58 am	what a wake up call. here's to a new year with new beginnings. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 19th, 2007
3:00 pm	I sincerely want to apologize to every single one of you who has come in contact with me within the last week. I'll be a hell of a lot nicer by 2:46 on friday. That's a promise. :) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 13th, 2007
6:03 pm	So one good thing happened today...I got into Flagler. :) The sad thing is, I'm almost too worried/stressed to even be happy about it. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 21st, 2007
11:16 am	I'm usually able to convince myself of anything. Wrong, Right, it doesn't matter. I'm my own strongest influence. Maybe that shows some sort of lack of something that I have. Maybe that's the reason I find some things that other people do so hard to understand. I can't get inside the heads of others. I really don't think I would even If I could. I hate secrets. But I also hate the pain that the truth can sometimes bring. I think if I had to choose, I'd choose the pain. Sounds weird right? But I would because from that pain also comes a relief of sorts. That feeling of, I'm glad this person thinks enough about me to confide in me and tell me the truth. And I know that's not always the case. Many times people just want to spare your feelings. And if that's truly and honestly their intention, well then that's pretty honorable. Why? Why do I fail to see past myself? Why can't I finally realize that my feelings aren't really what matters here? Now that I've said it, I guess I do realize. I do. But It's hard to have that mindset. It's hard to sweep away all these feelings of pain and loss and regret to completely focus on being there for you. And I'm trying. Because more than anything, I want to be there. And Im glad you're letting me. Change is just hard sometimes. But Im learning, and Im growing. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 11th, 2007
9:18 am	this has been a weekend of realizations. some great. some not so great. I put so much of myself out there. In a way, I set myself up for it. I think i know what I have to do now. Let's hope it works out. I'm optimistic. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 30th, 2007
8:20 am	This weekend... ...has been exhausting. Physically, Mentally, Emotionally. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 25th, 2007
9:04 pm	It's been a hard day. I just let the pressure and the strain of everything get to me. I usually don't let it though. Wow. I hate feeling like I can't do anything about this. I hate drama. I really need to learn to keep my mouth shut sometimes. It just gets me in trouble. The office is on TBS. It's cheering me up. Comments are screened, in case anyone want's to say anything. I don't know what I would do without some of you guys. :) (Comment on this)
Friday, September 14th, 2007
11:40 pm	I think I figured out exactly what I want to be doing the rest of my life, and Im going to do whatever it takes to make it happen. That's a promise. :) Current Mood: content (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 19th, 2007
7:08 pm	I've been feeling very isolated lately...Im sure it's my own fault. I just can't shake this feeling for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm writing an essay about isolation and rejection...hmm. But hopefully by tomorrow all these feelings will dissolve. Im excited. Sort of. I want to make this the best year yet...Im going to try very very hard, I hope you know. Our last year together, let's do it big. :) Ahh. I wish I could just say everything Im feeling. But I can't. Some things are better kept to oneself, I've learned. So it begins. Or ends. However you want to look at it. See you in the morning. Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 16th, 2007
5:28 pm	Let's have a good, worthwhile year. okay? (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
8:34 am	i have no idea... i really have no clue as to what prompted me to write this it's funny how much music can make you think. think about everything really. the good. the bad. all of it. I have all of my songs on shuffle and that one came on. It's probably the stupidest song in the world. i mean, it's hard to think that someone was being serious when they wrote it... yet i can't help but smile when i remember you singing to it in your car at night. and dancing of course. can't forget the dancing...or on the way to the beach when we rolled down the windows and blasted the songs from that one band...some of my best memories consist of driving at night and you singing whatever ridiculous song came on. and then there's you. another song came on, one that was popular in middle school, and i remembered the time we blasted it like idiots and drove by this one house...and then i had all these flashbacks of us riding in your car...and us riding in my car. and you telling me how to drive. and me telling you to shut up. and then, for some reason i thought of the time we planned out our perfect bodies...and i laughed. really hard. and you, you were probably the funnest person to rock out with. there's this one song, probably one of my absolute favorites, and i think of you every time i hear it...it was our love song. no our jam...ahhh i don't know which. but then i thought of the time when we went to bagelheads and i "lost" my keys...and we looked everywhere. and they were in my wallet. and then spending the night with you on the beach, for no reason. memories. they're hard to let go...but maybe this time, i should try a little harder. Things have changed so much since then. and now, im at a point where im trying to hang on to those memories, even though i know it's not what's best for me. sometimes i find myself wishing that we could all go back to how we were when we first blasted those songs in our cars... but then again, this past month, i've come to realize that i want to see what the future holds for me far more than i want to travel back in time. Im so excited for college. i can't wait to meet new people and form relationships with them. i can't wait to apply what i've learned this past year. I know it's bound to be one of the best experiences of my life. and im ready for it. im ready. to tell you the truth, i'll probably always hold those memories close to my heart. and when i look back on high school, i'll think of you and remember some of the best times of my life. really. i mean it. and you, some of the funniest times of my life. and you, some of the craziest times of my life. all of you. thank you for three years of amazing memories. and then of course, there are those songs that don't make you think of the past but of the present. you know the ones that seem to describe your life to the tee. yeah. i love those songs. Current Mood: contemplative (16 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 2nd, 2006
4:03 pm	when all you gotta keep is strong move along words cannot describe how much im going to miss you... Current Mood: crushed (3 Comments |Comment on this)
10:43 am	This is the worst feeling I've ever had in my entire life. I wish I didn't care. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
5:27 pm	Click here. Take the quiz. Post your results. ( See echoic_melody's results. ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
8:17 pm	[FIRST PERiOD] *What is this class? Chem *Who is your 1st period teacher? LomASSney *Who do you sit by? Heather *Do you like this class? uh most definately...not. *Who is your favorite person in this class? the fat whore *Do you ever have homework? never *Have you ever been late for this class? basically every day [SECOND PERIOD] *What is this class? Ap Euro History *Who is your teacher? Jonesie *Who makes you laugh the hardest in this class? Travis always sends me into hystarics *What kind of grades do you make in this class? B/C range *Who falls alseep in this class? im not that retarded [THIRD PERIOD] *What class is this? AP LANG. AND COMP. *Who is your teacher? murray *Is this class hard? noooooo *Who do you sit by? Kelsey, and CP *do you like this class? sometimes. [FOURTH PERiOD] *What is this class? Drivers Ed *Who do you sit by? Rizzo, Erin, Jesse, Tomathan *Is this a fun class? HELL YES...when im not being interrogated by Bragg about where I live or what his son acts like around me *Do you make good grades? hahahah yeah *Who have you worked with on a project/lab/hk assignment? well when i drive, i drive with rizzo b/c tom gets anal [FIFTH PERIOD] *What is this class? ACTING! *Do you like this class? its my favorite! *Who do you sit by in this class? claire and ben and who ever decides to stroll on over to our corner of the stage. *Who is your favorite person in this class? claire of course [SIXTH PERiOD] *What is this class? ALgebra 2 *Who makes you laugh the most? BARBIE is hillarious. *Who is your teacher? Sanchizzle *Who do you sit by? BARBIE, kevin, ricky, ramona *Is this a fun class? yes [SEVENTH PERIOD] *What is this class? French 2 *Who is your favorite person(people) in this class? hmm thats a toughie...i do love madame cocks and her constant bitching. *Do you like this class? most of the time it's pretty amusing *Who is your teacher? mme. COX that was fun! (Comment on this)
Friday, April 28th, 2006
6:27 pm	so i haven't updated in a long time. i've been reading some of my old LJ posts and i've realized how much things have changed since freshman year, how much i've changed, for the better. this year has gone by so fast. i love my friends. i wouldn't know what I'd do without you guys. you are honestly some of the most amazing people i've ever met. its crazy how much we've been through together, and its only been two years. i can only imagine what the next two will bring. ahh. summer is so close. i can't wait. oh AND, anyone in my english class...how did i do today? haha. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006
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